I'm not gonna lie. Things are tough right now.
Although I know that coming back to Tempe is going to be the right decision long term, bouncing back and forth across the country has left me pretty much starting over again from the bottom, which at 40, is not easy, but this is why we train martial arts; to have the mindset and the skills to persevere in the face of adversity, and I got a timely reminder of that recently in a fortune cookie (it was the only good thing to come out of the meal as the food was terrible).
I recently had a student from our classes here in AZ ask meIt doesn't have to be martial arts, but if you just pick one thing and start there, keep at it no matter how tough it gets, don't quit, don't give up, pretty soon that resolve and determination starts to become a skill you can apply to any area of the rest of your life.
Everything in life is "come /go". There will be easy times and difficulties. When you find yourself in a tight spot somewhere in your life, if you've developed this kind of attitude, you'll have the tools to deal with it. Not to mention that some outcomes can only be achieved through long term, relentless grinding. That's the true meaning of kung fu; effort put in over time, weeks and years.
As they say, "eat bitter to taste sweet", or as I heard someone say more recently "Without the challenges you can never be f*cking awesome!"
Yes, things are tough right now, but they won't always be. In the mean time, we just keep grinding.